I've recently been listening to Jason Upton's new album. I could probably write a novel about what God has revealed to me through each song, however, there's one in particular (Jacob's Dream) that moves me to tears every time I hear it. The song is a narrative; God is singing about Jacob.

He says this:

Finally Jacob's lying down, and while he sleeps I will dream of a generation not known for their crowns or success, but a King...

...who was not so much as interested in crowds, or pleasing men, but KNOWING ME.

Because My dream's not what you do.

Jacob, will you dream for me the way that I have dreamed for you?

I'm discovering (again) that just because I've learned something in the past about the nature of God and our relationship, doesn't mean I've fully applied that to my life. And it especially doesn't mean that I'll never have to learn it again. I've been reminded more times than I can count that I am not saved by what I do for Him. I'm not saved by my accomplishments here; and thank Jesus for that, because they are far too few and insignificant. But over the past few months, in the midst of all the preparation and thanking Him for the call to Haiti, I've gotten lost in His pleasure with my obedience. I DO believe He is pleased with me, but that's not the root of what He's asked. Nothing would please Him more than for me to dream for HIM like He dreams for me.

He's begging for us to stop trying to win Him, and just dream for Him.

It's in those dreams and in that intimacy that He'll show us the secret things...